UnTouchableTulisa
Singer and songwriter. She has spoken about the depression, anxiety and PTSD that followed a criminal case she was acquitted in.
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Written in our own words, from what Tulisa has said publicly.
Tulisa
Tulisa was acquitted, and that was when the depression started
Content note — this story covers a subject some people would rather choose when to read.
Tulisa dates a major depression to the moment her public life came apart. She had spent her whole life working towards the position she was in — she says the thought of getting there was what had carried her through depression and anxiety as a child — and then, in what she describes as half a second, it was gone. She knew straight away that how she was seen had changed permanently. She uses the word tarnished. She was charged. She was acquitted. She says being acquitted is not much use when your life is already in tatters, and that she was grateful for the result and still could not shake what followed it. The processing only began afterwards, because while it was happening there was no room for it. She was then a key witness in a further case, and describes still being followed, still having attempts made to set her up, and living in a state of hypervigilance and fear for another year — three years altogether rather than one. That, she says, is when the depression, the anxiety and the PTSD properly set in. It is also when she made suicide attempts. This page is not going to describe them, and there is nothing here about how. What she chose to talk about is what happened next: a friend worked out that something was wrong, came to the house, found her and called an ambulance. She lived. She says she was angry to wake up, and afterwards did not want to know anything about it — she did not talk to that friend about what she had found until years later. She has since thanked, publicly, the person who stepped in. She has written a book about all of it, and says finishing it is the reason she is still here: that people go through long dark stretches convinced there is no light at the end, and she wants it read by someone in exactly that position. Nothing here is medical advice. If any of this is close to home, the numbers at the end of this page are free, and they are there in the middle of the night.
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One of the sources for this story is an interview with Tulisa. You can watch it here.
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